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Andrea Illés & Grace Marlow

Roomsheet

u wanted to call it special room but my room isn’t special anymore even though it stands as it was - a museum to an era where my heart broke with every smashed mirror - a room has a feeling - yours feels like yours mine feels like mine but that feeling is partly made by what’s around it - u could say the word context but i hesitate idw kill something real by using a word that makes it into a theory - damn I’m sad - so much happened in that room u looked after me after they cut my wound out and then I went and there i was so far away - the ground disappearing under my feet - sisters dropping like flies and i had to do something i had to go somewhere so i went down to the tracks again - and back here u drove around for days and days and days - looking for wings - i sat at bus stops and they slowed their pickups and stared out the window hands on their guns growling at me i felt like prey like the Lyme infected deer that ran through stolen forests - i was something to eradicate - a pest like the arachnids that feed on the deer’s blood and get the disease and pass it on to their children who bite the children in the pickups - its a fkn danger all right but it’s not cause the arachnids have 8 legs its cause the pickups made that Lyme cocktail in their labs to squirt all over their enemies but they gave up because paralysis takes too long - maybe they thought of feeding it to a whole population - a nation of arthritics would be easier to steal from - i pulled 8 legs from my scalp one day with new sisters - i pulled her along the length of a ringlet straightened with tension - your poison was on my mind and i wanted the buses to hurry up - things happen at bus stops here too but it felt different there I guess cause I didn’t get street wise there I got it here where the men pushed me down into the concrete - but the pickups there have different rules like when the federal officer watched me use the bathroom but kindly did nothing - an exception - for me - an officially designated predator officially designated pest unofficially designated prey - i still want u to want me - i still want u to want me - i still want u to want me.